Finding Peace Before You Die: What Matters Most

Preparing for a Good End (Part 7)

Even in the most painful circumstances, those who reconcile their relationships express the feeling of finishing well—their life fulfilled.
Finding Peace Before You Die: What Matters Most
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Sharleen Lucas

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In this series, we'll examine ways of making meaning in the face of death, offering tools founded in traditional wisdom and scientific evidence to help our readers live well right to the very end. 

There’s a story I won’t forget from my time working as a registered nurse in our hospital’s COVID-19 unit during the heat of the pandemic.

“Jerry” and “Debbie,” both in their 80s, had been married for decades, raising kids and grandkids together. After struggling for two weeks to fight COVID-19, their organs were failing irreversibly. Family members agreed it was time to remove life support and let them die peacefully.

We rolled Jerry and Debbie into a room in our step-down isolation unit and snuggled their beds close, helping them find each other's hands. They knew they were side-by-side as their hands curled around each other.

An ICU nurse worked beyond her 12-hour shift to tend to any discomfort after the life support machines powered down. In a few hours, Jerry died, with Debbie close behind still holding her husband’s hand.

The Human Longing for Closeness

“Ask a man who is being wheeled into transplant surgery or a woman facing chemotherapy for the third time what’s on his or her mind and the answer will always involve the people they love," Dr. Ira Byock, a palliative care specialist, writes in "The Four Things That Matter Most." "Always.”

As Jerry and Debbie drifted in and out during their final days and hours, hearing the voices of family and friends over video calls and lying next to each other during their last day, they likely thought of loved ones, those alive and long departed.

Dr. Byock said that, like most providers working with dying patients, he believes that humans long for closeness and emotional healing. Perhaps Mother Teresa said it best: “There’s more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread.”

Jackie’s Convincing Story

In her blog called The Palliative Provocateur, Rebecca Gagne-Henderson, Ph.D., APRN, ACHPN, a palliative care specialist who has worked with dying patients for 27 years, tells a convincing story about this human hunger.

"Jackie," a local gang member, learned she was dying at age 22. Initially bitter and hostile, she slowly softened under the care of her kind hospice nurse, Pat. In a vulnerable moment, Jackie told Pat the one thing she wanted before dying was for her mom and dad to care for her together. Jackie's embittered parents had divorced 17 years earlier, leaving her and her siblings in the care of revolving family members.

Through the perseverance of the hospice chaplain, Jackie’s parents miraculously agreed to stay with her for three days, bathing, changing, and feeding her, caring for her in a way Jackie likely dreamed of since she was 5. By the third day, the hate and anger between Jackie’s parents melted, and the three wept together as they forgave each other.

The next day, Jackie, once rife with bitterness over dying, told Pat, “Now I can die, and it is OK. I did what I was supposed to do."

After caring for seriously ill and dying patients since 1978, Dr. Byock said he believes that “healing and wholeness are always possible,” no matter how damaged a relationship is.

“The specter of death reveals our relationships to be our most precious possessions,” he writes.

Jackie died peacefully within the week, "having found love, grace, forgiveness, and meaning," Ms. Gagne-Henderson wrote in her blog.

Four Things That Matter Most

After 27 years of tending to dying patients, Ms. Gagne-Henderson told The Epoch Times that spiritual distress (unresolved relational and existential pain) at the end of life causes the “ugliest deaths, much worse than physical pain.”

We know a relationship is complete, Dr. Byock argues, "when we feel reconciled, whole, and at peace," which helps one avoid the distress of an "ugly death."

Dr. Byock said he is convinced that saying these four phrases may be the most potent way to bring emotional peace to the living and the dying alike:

Please forgive me.

I forgive you.

Thank you.

I love you.

“Using the four things,” Dr. Byock writes, "we can deliberately decide to make our relationships whole. This can bring about a sense of completion before death is imminent.”

This settling of emotional and mental turmoil makes saying goodbye less crucial because nothing important is left unsaid, completing the things that matter most to us. Even in the most painful circumstances, those who reconcile their relationships express the feeling of finishing well—their life fulfilled.

The 4 Things Are for The Living, Too

Finding meaning and reconciliation is essential to dying and living well. Death presses loved ones together like a pressure cooker, causing peace or turmoil. Dr. Byock encourages those seeking peace to pursue it sooner rather than later, not waiting for the raw motivation of death to press in.

“I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve met people in my office, an emergency room, hospital or a hospice program,” he writes, “who have expressed deep regret over things they wish they had said.”

This sentiment echoes Harriet Beecher-Stowe’s words, “The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.”

Lack of reconciliation creates a flowing undercurrent of spiritual distress that keeps nagging until one finds relational healing. For grievers of estranged, dead loved ones, an unresolved relationship causes complicated grief, a psychological term for survivors' long, arduous, and sometimes unresolved grieving processes.

When we embrace the four things earlier in our lives, they become an attitude we cultivate. According to Dr. Byock, we then internalize the phrases, repeating them to ourselves and our loved ones—“Please forgive me ... I forgive you ... Thank you ... I love you.”

For the living and dying alike, these words transform legacies of pain into legacies of joy.

“The healing of a broken relationship,” Dr. Byock argues, “in the last hours or even minutes before death, can reframe the history of the relationship and the biographies of everyone involved ... They present an extraordinary opportunity, one that is available to us all to use in our lives to heal any relationship, any day.”

Palliative care providers have a saying: “It’s always too soon until it’s too late.”

When Reconciliation Feels Impossible

To some, Dr. Byock’s four phrases may seem too simple for deeply painful relationships brimming with damage. Yet he's not the only palliative care provider who has seen transformation unravel from fractured relationships when one party dares to be vulnerable.

Sallie Tisdale, a veteran hospice nurse, offers similar hope in her book "Advice for Future Corpses (And Those Who Love Them)." She writes to caregivers of the dying, "Make room for the possibility of changing the course of a life even at the last moment.”

Hospice physician and End-of-Life University (EOLU) founder Dr. Karen Wyatt also offers practical advice to such caregivers. In an EOLU podcast discussion with award-winning author and hospice nurse Barbara Karnes, she encourages listeners to say what needs to be said even when the one dying is no longer conscious.

Hearing is the last sense we lose in the dying process. Dr. Wyatt said she believes that you may experience peace and offer peace to a dying loved one when you whisper necessary words into their ear, whether they respond or not.

Dr. Byock acknowledges the many challenges of saying the four things, such as overcoming legitimate, deep-seated anger toward the one dying, but he writes that the four things can help you find better options than any amount of bitterness.

He also offers advice and hope for when a loved one dies too soon or becomes lost in dementia before you reconcile with them. He said he believes in saying the four things anyway. Perhaps they can understand or hear you. Either way, it will do you a world of good.

Whatever the circumstance, imagine healing even if it seems impossible, Dr. Byock writes. Once you’ve imagined the possibility, say the four things early and say them often.

This article completes our series "Preparing for a Good End."

Sharleen Lucas, R.N., is a freelance writer with medical, spiritual, and emergency care expertise. After two decades of serving patients and families at the bedside or as a spiritual care director, she’s committed to empowering readers’ physical and spiritual well-being by boiling down health information with the warmth and skill of an RN next door. You can find her at